Sunday, May 27, 2007

Kw sent me this touching story. It's touching. Here it goes..

My mom only had one eye. I hated her. She was such an embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, "UUHH, your mom only has one eye!" I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.

So I confronted her that day and said, " If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!"
My mom did not respond.

I didnt even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go to Singapore to study.

Then, I got married. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts

Then one day, my mother came to visit me.

She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!" GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in Singapore.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.

I did not shed a single tear.

They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

"My dearest son, I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to Singapore and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.

But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.

I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
When you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.
With my love to you,
Your mother’’

I had a small quarrel with my mum too. O my! I felt so bad after reading this.


I was right about Liverpool about not winning the Champions League. But I went to buy Liverpool win cause of the high odds. Alrights, I'm dumb. I swear no matter what, I won't buy Liverpool to win in any matches in the future.

Finally started to do my LAM. Doing on Statue of Liberty. Need to write at least 2500 words. I think I'm dead. I still got like 1000+ more words to add to reach that.

Rayner went to pierce his nipple. O MY! I think that's damn fucking pain. Even when people pinch me on that sensitive part, I will be like shouting here and there already la. Can't imagine one day if my nipples are pierced. OUCH!!! Went to have lunch with him at AMK Hub after that.

I don't know why I have been sleeping alot these few days. Like on thurs, I slept from 2pm to 9pm, woke up awhile, and went back to sleep at 1am. Today, I slept till 9+pm again after I reached home. But I still love sleeping though.

And I love my dreams. They are real crappy. I remember I dreamt that I have a motorbike. But I don't know how to change gear, which means I can only drive at Gear 1. Then got a thief snatch someone's bag. I tried to chase after him. And I anyhow stepped on some shit and changed to Gear 2, and gradually to 3 and 4 etc. And BUANG!!! Cause I lost control. That's one sad shit. I woke up after that.

I kept reflecting about my whole life recently. About some shits I have done wrongly and how others had disappointed me. I realised I can only learn from my wrongdoings and don't expect too much from others. Instead, expect more from myself.

I'm enjoying life now. I love my home. I got a nice room for myself. I got a nice family. I got good friends around me. I hope things in life will go better for me, and for others as well. I have been hearing my friends sharing with me about how their lives are going. Some are good, and of course, there are bad ones too. Like I told a good friend of mine, things are different from the past and present. Who knows things may be different in the future too?

*cheer up dude




Sunday, May 20, 2007

Had my PPP today. It was kinda boring. Gotta wake up so early and reach school at 9am. After that went home and sleep till night.

Ray, Kb, Kelvin Tay, Zk and Leonard came over my place to watch the FA Cup final between Chelsea and Man U. Heartbreaking for Man U fans cause it seemed like the match was going into penalties after 5 mins remaining.

After the game, went to play soccer till like 4+am. The last time I played midnight soccer was last May. But my left black toe is really black now. Seems like its going to break anytime. The nail pokes the flesh. Zz.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night.
And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.


That's something I got from vic.

Surprised to see Jing Hui on the bus 88 yesterday. Been like years since I have seen this primary school friend of mine. Chatted abit with him before alighting.

Had A for my IBS. I'm delighted. Was nervous throughout, but luckily everything went quite smoothly when I thought I will stutter alot. PHEWS.

Result was out today.

Spent the day with my mum. LOL mama's boy (= Been quite awhile since I went out with her. Wonderful day. Talked alot with her also like why she gave me the name Vincent. AND I was like -.-" when I know the reason. Really feel like whacking her man. LOL but never mind.

FAMILY: FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU (WHAT HAPPEN TO THE SIBLINGS?)